I just couldn't stop crying. I just couldn't help but to think of what happened between you and I...Was it just a dream? Then I rather pinch myself and make sure it is a dream. I tried my best and I failed to keep you with me. I didn't want to argue and I didn't want to quarrel but my heart wants to fight for what's right. I tried to control my emotions but in the end I lost control over it and allowed alcohol to take over me last night. I miss you and I love you but in the end I had to lose you once more. I couldn't take the blow and got myself drunk. I wished I didn't have to wake up and face this fact. You deleted me off Facebook and I guess you deleted me off from your phone.
I remember the time before you went Genting, on how much you wished I was with you and how much you loved me but now somehow I felt it has all tumbled down into one conclusion is that you've lost your interest in me and that you no longer love me. I miss you so much, I rather let you nag and scold than let you give me the cold shoulder. I love you, I rather let myself suffer than to hold on to you but right now I really can't take it. I really wanna go crazy. I can't stop myself from crying...I can't stop myself from hurting!!! I can't stop myself from going crazy. I miss how you used to type sweet messages to me, how you used to tell me you love me. I miss that...but I can no longer hear or see it anymore :( I have to cry myself to bed every night, go to work with swollen eyes and hoarse voice from crying.
Why must you be so cruel to me? When you knew I couldn't stand losing you! Why must you runaway instead of solving the issues? Have I not tried hard enough to please you just to see you smile? Have I not tried hard enough to change to assure you that the same thing won't happen again? Have I not tried hard enough to avoid arguments and those others misapprehend collisions?? I should have kept it, I should have let it stay by my side because I knew one day you're gonna leave me alone...I wanted to keep it, I wanted to have it :( In the end I took it out and had great pain....
I have lost all hopes to smile or laugh, I can no longer go back into being happy ever again. I will just feign it every single day. Good bye my love~ You've done a lot of great things for me, thank you for loving me once before...
I remember the time before you went Genting, on how much you wished I was with you and how much you loved me but now somehow I felt it has all tumbled down into one conclusion is that you've lost your interest in me and that you no longer love me. I miss you so much, I rather let you nag and scold than let you give me the cold shoulder. I love you, I rather let myself suffer than to hold on to you but right now I really can't take it. I really wanna go crazy. I can't stop myself from crying...I can't stop myself from hurting!!! I can't stop myself from going crazy. I miss how you used to type sweet messages to me, how you used to tell me you love me. I miss that...but I can no longer hear or see it anymore :( I have to cry myself to bed every night, go to work with swollen eyes and hoarse voice from crying.
Why must you be so cruel to me? When you knew I couldn't stand losing you! Why must you runaway instead of solving the issues? Have I not tried hard enough to please you just to see you smile? Have I not tried hard enough to change to assure you that the same thing won't happen again? Have I not tried hard enough to avoid arguments and those others misapprehend collisions?? I should have kept it, I should have let it stay by my side because I knew one day you're gonna leave me alone...I wanted to keep it, I wanted to have it :( In the end I took it out and had great pain....
I have lost all hopes to smile or laugh, I can no longer go back into being happy ever again. I will just feign it every single day. Good bye my love~ You've done a lot of great things for me, thank you for loving me once before...
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