I've tried my best to make things work but somehow it will always turn sour at the end of the day and it makes me so tired of trying to give my very best into changing myself for the better! I tried to make things work and tried to cease the fire...However, at the end of the day; JUST ONE SPEECH BREAKS IT ALL APART!! I tried not to say it all, yet you had to say it all in front of him and do you even know how much he doesn't want to be reminded of all the shit ass things that happened between him and I? Whatever happens, I still love him and I'm trying to prove to him that I'll not make the same mistakes over and over again but what you said just made things worst. Do you even realize that? Do you even realize his coldness towards me out of a sudden due to your words? Your insecure does make things worst and it makes all matters worst around you.
I hate it all right now and how I wish you could think of the situation once in awhile. I tried to consider but do you know how much it hurts? NO!! You've been through hell and taught me things; I'm grateful but do you even know how much I tried to make things work between him and I yet all the words you said about your r/s and how fearful you are about losing what used to be yours just made things worst. I am grateful for your advices and concern but now everything seems to be falling apart!!! *Sigh*
Sometimes I really wish I could give up...
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