Down in the dumps

Being with you is like being with a shooting star,

one that burns so brightly yet it scorches me...

I'll calculate the amount of time we've spoken ever since 3 days before our 1st month anniversary, it would be approximately less than 4 days in total for the amount of time. Am I asking too much out of you? I guess I am, being all selfish and willful about life and relationship. I never wanted anything more but to be happy with you; however, that seems to have changed ever since we've broken up and patched back. You told me to heed your advices and listen to what you've have to dictate but even if I were to listen, nothing seems to have changed. Maybe...just maybe it is still the distance causing the problems. In spite of the fact, I'm still thinking too much as always.

I've just finished my Geopolitics examination today, it was a relief and I'm glad I stayed up all night to study. Everything went on well, which was extremely amazing. You promised to text me wherever you go but you didn't...I guess I weigh really little on your heart and mind. Words of passion can be spoken of easily but the actions are harder. It proven me how much I meant to you. I felt condemned by you. I really do love you and miss you; nevertheless I've lost myself when I fell for you.

I can no longer smile...there's nothing that could make me smile.