Getting entangled in an abundance of thoughts, caught me in a dire state. I once tripped and fell, I had abrasions. But now, I fell and landed up being a "white" location with drips, needles, pills, masks and white dandy aprons with every deathly aura lingering within. How ridiculous can things get, with absurd wild thoughts and less support; I ended up falling and hurting myself intensively. Somehow, after a near-death experience; it got me thinking that how stupidly I was to react in such a manner and how stupidly I've caused so much worries on the people who love and care about me. How intriguing~ I know perfectly what that means!!
After going through such excruciating yet melancholy situation, I realized that I've so much people who love and care about me unconditionally yet I had to put them through such dire situation and I'm sincerely apologizing for it now. Especially to my mum and boyfriend who tried their best to assure that I will not do such absurd acts; I'm extremely and sincerely sorry that you had to put up with my disenchant act. My baby, I am sorry for the things I've done and I wish things would get back on track. I don't wish to repeat my wrongdoings as I've repent on my sins a countless of times, reminding myself how imprudent I was. Please forgive my reckless doings, I will not ever do it again and I'll listen to you if there were to be a chance that it occurs again *cross my fingers* and I know there won't be. I love you very much and I'm glad you're willing to give me one last chance to prove that I'm willing to change for your sake. You mean the world to me, and without you; life is like a flower without roots, like an ocean without its water, like a sun without its sky. Please stand by me, I need you to be here when I'm learning to grow strong. You're the strength that I need, with your support; I'll be able to pull through. My mum, I'm sorry I've brought so much grievance and worries for majority of my life and I know you've done a lot for me to show me that you love, care and support me throughout my life when everything was falling apart. You've done so much to prove to me that without you, I'll be lying on the streets without a single penny...I'm sorry mum. I really do love you, let me take my time to recover...Once the dark clouds are gone and I learn to resolve my tribulations, I will show you how much I've cherished you my whole life. I won't take too long, I will bring back your smiles and laughter. I really want to show you how much I've appreciate the sacrifice you've made, the time you've taken out to spend time with me, the advices you've given me and the sharing of your burdens. I want to prove it all to you...I will bring the best out of me. Just wait for me please~ I love you wholeheartedly.
I'm sorry for the worries I've caused to everyone, thanks for the word of comfort, care and support. Many thanks to my counselor who paid me a visit every day when I was lying there in a dire state. Thanks to Vanessa, Matt, Tessa, Esther, Guilliame, Alan, Dexter, Mr Gordon, Mr Ekah for the concern. I'll be fine~ I'll work hard for the rest of the semester.
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