Look me through the eyes, telling me you love me.

Shadows walking through the silent night,

as silence prevails through the hall way.

Obstacles we overcome with all our might,

as we try to keep all the troubles at bay.

******

The hardworking effort, I've seen it all. The pain I see running through your eyes, yet you don't seem to complain. The smiles I see were hiding the true feelings so as to not to hurt me; keep all the pain away so I don't have to suffer. You hide it well, but your facial expression shows it all; so tell me how could I pretend not to see? I watched you silently as you sleep, looking at you with tears in my eyes...thinking what a wonderful gift god gave me. But I felt I wasn't doing my part in this relationship. With the sudden tantrums, with the sudden mood swings; giving you frights and worries not knowing what to do. The questions were running through my mind: "are you making him happy?" "is this what he deserves?" "Do you think you'll make it through and not hurt anyone?" Answers: I am not making him happy; this is not what he deserves because he deserves better. I don't know if I could make it through even with the thoughts of not wanting to hurt anyone. I'm lost, really confused.

The tears I shed was the pain I felt, the attacks I had and the thoughts of you. I couldn't make you smile, I kept giving you attitude. I couldn't make you laugh, I kept getting uptight with you. So tell me what should I do...so tell me what should I say. I have no idea at all right now...I cried and cried and cried. Till my tears ran dry...My mind is running wild, my heart is beating fast. It hurts, it hurts~ I love you but I can't make you smile. You never complain a single bit. Am I not good enough? I don't know...NEGATIVE thoughts are running through me. I miss you...I do. &I am sorry~