To my dearest boyfriend with love ♥
This past two days have been really BAD as I've been quarreling with Baby over trivial matters which both knew could be resolve if we talked it through; however, with my stubborn personality/attitude, it was impossible as my mind wasn't in a calm state to listen to any explanations or reasons. But Baby was sweet and nice enough to cheer me up no matter how much attitude I gave him for the past two days. I know he made sacrifices for me by enduring all the stuff that his friends commented on~ I guess I have to learn not to be so stubborn and sit down calmly to listen to him at times when it is needed instead of being so impulsive. I know I hurt him deeply by saying one hell loads of hurtful words and I am dearly apologetic towards him. I guess there's time when I need to take some hectic measures and to learn to be much more understanding instead of being all so unreasonable but what can I say?? I'm just afraid to put so much effort into something that I'm not really certain that would last after all the past relationships that I have been into.
Well baby, for the past 9 days you've been putting up with my endless nonsensical rants and sudden outburst of various emotions; &I'm so sorry for putting you through all these hardships within this relationship. I guess it's because we hardly understand each other, thus, I was unprepared for this relationship. But now I'm assure that I'm ready to put my heart into this relationship at all cost without fear after all the things you've said and done. I love you very much and I know you love me even more than I've expected you to. God has bestowed me with a wonderful gift to love, care and adore; &that gift is YOU ♥ For all the hurtful things I've said and done to you, I am extremely sorry. I know you've been putting in your best effort to understand me, to love me and to care about me but all I've done is to cause you endless worries and doubts. Please do understand what I'm going through because I'm doing this alone by myself. I know you're worried about my health; that's why you kept reminding me to eat my medication on a regular basis and making sure I don't skip a meal :D You're the best and sweetest boyfriend. Thank you so much for loving me, caring about me and doting me with all your heart.
Well baby all I can say is that I love you with all my heart. Please put your trust in me as I will never betray you for someone else. I will never cheat on you. I don't care what your friends said on your wall because right now this relationship is between you and I, no one else. Remember the promise you make alright?? Oh I can't wait to go back home to see you, I am just so anxious right now :D Believe me and have faith, that's all I ask of you. I know you're compromising towards this relationship for my sake and enduring. I miss you extremely loads.
Every single day you skype with me without fail, sending smses to me every hour to make sure that I will have my heart at ease of your whereabouts and making me smile without fail. You made me smile without reasons, your laughter is so contagious and I know all you want to see is that I'm smiling and never crying. Thank you baby because you've given me the best even though we're far apart in distance. So far yet so close!! You made my heart skip a beat every time you make me smile with your silly actions. I LOVE U SO DAMN MUCH ONG JIAN ZHEN ♥
Okay I shall put a halt to all the mushy stuff and get on with my blogging. Right now is 5.08am in the morning, it's time for me to go to bed. I'll be wishing everyone a good night now and for those whose birthday is today, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Last accounting exam is on Thursday, I need to study hard for it as I've missed so much in class :( Now I have to concentrate on French classes and accounting for the time being; soon it would be Room Divisions, Food & Beverage and Geopolitics!! 68 more days to go!!! JIAYOU~ &many thanks to my best friend YongShen, Mushroom Didi Dennis, babyGF Yuki, Adek Sheree, Buddy Beng, Beloved Sweetie Javier, Darling Cheryl, bro Eugene for being there for me when I was really upset; not forgetting my three most precious people in my life MUMMY, SIS and BABY ♥!!! Oh how I miss home, can't wait to go shopping spree with Baby, movies, clubbing, pubs, slacking, eating and roundings in Singapore with my lovely cliques~
TIME FOR BED...
Bonne nuit mes amis~
au revoir...je t'aime et tu me manques toujours mon chéri ♥
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