No point reminiscing, no point holding...I can no longer hold back my tears; it hurts too much to pretend nothing ever happened. It hurts too much not to remember; it hurts to know it is no longer there. You once said a hurtful thing to me; "the only thing that is keeping us together is .................." I don't wish to remember but I just couldn't forget. I don't wish to know but I have to willingly accept what reality hits me back with at the end of the day. Every day I have to pretend it wasn't what I thought it was...every day I have to put up a strong front just for you. But have you really accept that fact I'm willing to change for the sake of our relationship? NO!
I tried my best to hold back my tears, I tried my best to understand you, I tried my best to be reasonable, I tried my best to be strong for you, I tried my best not to give you attitude, I tried my best not to be over sensitive. But in the end, all I get is frustration vent on me!! Have I not tried? Have I not given my best? You said you cared, you said you are worried...but why does your actions shows me a different thing. Why does you actions shows me how little I weight in your heart? It hurts, and I'm enduring. I'm the one suffering the pain, I'm the one suffering it all alone!! You're stressed over work and being worried about my health. Have you spared a thought for me? All you can do is scold and scold; yell and yell...what am I to say? NOTHING~ I'm dumbfounded by your actions but I can't complain. I've to keep silent about everything. All you cared is your pride and dignity~~ what about mine? I just wanted you to understand how I feel...is it so hard to ask for?
Never mind...for you, I endure. All the hardship, torments, obstacles, problems I'll endure!! You were not there when I needed you, all you could is think of the money and work~ what about me? I have to understand that you couldn't take leave for the whole day to keep me company! All I get is your anger at the end of the day. Everything I say or do, is childish to you. In your eyes, I'll never grow up. In your eyes, I'll never be what you want me to be. I'm just foolish naive and clumsy!!
I love you but this is what I've got to endure just to be with you. I'm willing to endure because I love you. I'll not give up even if it hurts me thoroughly deep down into the heart.
I tried my best to hold back my tears, I tried my best to understand you, I tried my best to be reasonable, I tried my best to be strong for you, I tried my best not to give you attitude, I tried my best not to be over sensitive. But in the end, all I get is frustration vent on me!! Have I not tried? Have I not given my best? You said you cared, you said you are worried...but why does your actions shows me a different thing. Why does you actions shows me how little I weight in your heart? It hurts, and I'm enduring. I'm the one suffering the pain, I'm the one suffering it all alone!! You're stressed over work and being worried about my health. Have you spared a thought for me? All you can do is scold and scold; yell and yell...what am I to say? NOTHING~ I'm dumbfounded by your actions but I can't complain. I've to keep silent about everything. All you cared is your pride and dignity~~ what about mine? I just wanted you to understand how I feel...is it so hard to ask for?
Never mind...for you, I endure. All the hardship, torments, obstacles, problems I'll endure!! You were not there when I needed you, all you could is think of the money and work~ what about me? I have to understand that you couldn't take leave for the whole day to keep me company! All I get is your anger at the end of the day. Everything I say or do, is childish to you. In your eyes, I'll never grow up. In your eyes, I'll never be what you want me to be. I'm just foolish naive and clumsy!!
I love you but this is what I've got to endure just to be with you. I'm willing to endure because I love you. I'll not give up even if it hurts me thoroughly deep down into the heart.
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